Track #5 - Ennui

Recorded - 

Basic Track - October 17, 22-27, 2012
Additional Lead Guitar - February 12, 16, 2013
Vocals - February 14, 15, 2013

Backstory - 

There's quite a history to this song. The seeds of "Ennui" came to me in a dream over fifteen years ago. It was the first time I truly remember getting fixated on a song idea, and I dreamed then of taking this idea I had in my head and turning it into a song. Unfortunately, I didn't have any way to record music back then so this tune was forced to sit in my noggin' for nearly a decade.

In 2008 during the sessions for Turn Back The Years, I finally recorded a version of this "Dream tune" under the title "All Over". Yet, it wasn't meant to be. The song didn't turn out musically as I'd originally envisioned, and the political lyrics were dated by the time I finally wanted to release the song, in 2010. As a result, it didn't make the album, and wound up in limbo.

When I commenced recording for my still in-progress four album project, I knew I had to remake "All Over" and cap off a song that's been haunting me for so many years. Using some psychedelic music touches, and totally new lyrics that depict writer's block and post-heartbreak, the newly titled "Ennui" is, in my mind, finally as nature intended.

Lyrics - 

I spent all day, lying in bed. 
Daydreaming, and wasting time.
Haven't left the house, for several weeks. 
You may think I'm sick, but I feel fine.

This feeling's got me, restless and lazy. 
My motivations' lost at sea.
Don't throw me a lifejacket. You can't save me now. 
Cause I'm lost without a map, since you deserted me.

I've got no will, to make music.
I've lost all of my, creative juice.
Some may call it, writer's block.
I think of it, more as my gallows and my noose.

Can't you see what you've done to me.
You've got me in shackles and chains.
Please come back, won't you please return.
Please, please, please, before I go insane!

Baby take a look all around you.
See what you've done to me.
I can't function without you.
Everything's incomplete.
I know deep down you're missing me.
I can see it in your eyes.
I'm losing all my ambitions.
So please won't you help me get out of here. 

This feeling's got me, restless and lazy. 
My motivations' lost at sea.
Please throw me a lifejacket, I need you to save me now. 
Cause I'm lost without a map, I'm stranded and alone.
So alone, so please come back to me.